Sept. 22.81

Frances darling, 

I am so glad you have written, my darling, and laid bare your heart, because that is just the love-bond the Spirit forged, didn’t He, when we were together in those woods with our precious Margy. It is a bond for keeps. And when you share with me, I can share with you. At the moment my precious Pauline has just left us for the presence of Jesus. I enclose a letter I have sent some special friends and please share with Margy. Of course I miss her but am altogether glad she is now in the perfect life she longed for with Jesus. Then also Sandie and I have now a special care for our Pris, who is mentally disturbed, though so loving, and now Pauline has gone, is with us and will always need someone in the home with her. Our wonderful Susie was given of God for Pauline, but her call has never been Pris, so humanly Sandie and I can’t do our travellings and leave her–and it is at this spot we are looking for our miracle-working God to make some way, because we believe He would still have us do our travelling, including Britain next June! So watch with us and share with my Margy. 

And now darling, as I say, I am so glad you have again opened your heart. You see what the Spirit must do is to wane you right away from assessing life from your self-point of view. I know you know that and end your letter by saying "How to hand over…I can’t make out."

So back and back we come to this, love, of course you have handed over in your inner Frances self–your spirit, and HE HAS taken you totally over so that you are HE in your form; but you swing to and fro between soul-self "feelings" and Spirit-reality. You mistakenly keep saying such phrases as "all I know is the mind and not of the Spirit." No, darling, your mind, your mind-set IS the mind of the Spirit in you. See Rom. 13:2 (and you have done this) and Eph. 4:23; and in Rom. 8:5-9, you do walk in the "minding of the Spirit" and are NOT in the flesh (8:9). So, darling your mind-set is the mind of Christ operating in you; if it were not, you wouldn’t be caring and writing to me about your self! So don’t mistake your real "mind" again. 

But according to Heb. 4:12, you have not settled into that discerning between soul & spirit; and all this soul-self stuff (which is really Satan attacking your emotions and reasons with his self-self stuff) are only attacks on you. And God means you to have them (so praise Him for them) because they press you into that constant affirming that your "collapses" into eating (we all have some "lusts," darling, apparently yours are not the usual "sex" ones, but eating–well, OK) are soul-body attacks on you (really from Satan). Then when they get you, dare to rise up, though it may seem a battle by refusing to say that lust has power over you. Pick up and tell God that HE ONLY (read 1 Cor. 7:12, 13) is the power in you, and the other is only outer attacks on you via your body-lusts (which we all have in one way or another). 

Then, darling refuse to say such nonsense as that you are a worm (though you may feel it–soul), and affirm yourself as precious eternal daughter of God. And don’t "fear" to go places or be with folks because this "thing" gets you. What you fear is really the real sin (not the eating is the sin!) of believing evil, and what you believe you experience. So KEEP BELIEVING YOU ARE ONLY HE AND NONE ELSE; then when the food attacks get you, or these temptations to suicide etc, you see them as soul-body attacks and NOT YOUR REAL SELF. 

So you see, darling, it comes down to what is our "minding"–Rom. 8:5-7; and your minding is HE as you. Your soul-thoughts may wander all over the place with false fearings and condemnations etc, but you keep realizing they are NOT YOU. That is why in Heb. 4:12–that verse says God discerns between thoughts and intents of the heart. Intents are your fixed spirit-self, Christ as you; thoughts are changeable soul-stuff and not you. 

And, darling, if you say that Yes, you know all this and do affirm, but don’t feel any different, and still get caught up by these attacks, well STILL KEEP AFFIRMING FACT–against all soul and feelings and remembering that GOD means you to have these attacks and feelings as your training ground. So PRAISE for them also!

And don’t say you are useless. You are where HE walks in you at present and evidently it is to be with your mother and not in a job. ALL life is just HE BEING HIMSELF in our forms, thus learn contentment with Him as our beautiful Margy does. 

Don’t stop making arrangements with friends etc, go ahead in faith, and if caught by an "attack" which gets you momentarily, just get up again, even if you have to cancel an arrangement. And, darling this will pass away, and disappear from your life. Maybe share all this with Margy and go over those Scriptures together. 

Loving and hugging you, my darling, as I did when with you. 

Ever your own lover-uncle, 

Norman