Letters from Norman
The spirit does play His games with you. The game of life and how to play itI remember a booklet I have named that. You cant return a tennis ball with vigour unless it has been f irst driven over the net to you! Negatives and positives are the two sides of the same thing. Saying Yes to something means you have said No to the alternative.
(So God is giving His Joan form of His Self-manifestationThe Permanent Positiveby giving you a necessary valuable dose of the negative, valuable, but only negative self-thinking selfJoan!)
That is where the Written Word comes in, as the medium. That Word only conveys THE WORD, whom John reveals to us in his marvelous gospel from its very first phraseread it. And he starts his marvelous first epistle by precisely the samemanifestation of The Word which is THE PERSON. Read it again.
So, yes, you are in a training stage, to establish you in your fixed REALITY which is you the red hot iron, but what glows is not you, but iron. THAT IS OUR PREMANENT ONENESS, expressed in that marvelous phraseThey in Me, and I in them. Both separate entities, but inextricably interlaced as an eternal one!
Therefore James says you start by trials, the pressures of the negative on mind (for you) and body. You Count them joyALL JOY, and count is not soul-feeling, but obedient spirit! And why? Because it gives you the constant practice of "faith"deliberate believingand that James said worketh patience. You cant hit that ball back except first hit to you. And as you settle into it, it becomes fun, zestonly at first in the practicing rounds feels a bit laborious. But that practice produces stabilised perfection. Again read James 1:1-4. Read those passages even if appearing at present distasteful and boring to you.
And Peter said to beginners, for his letter is to the new-bornAfter you have suffered a while, stablish you. Read it again in 1 Pet, 5.10.
So you just dont have glory without suffering, Paul said that in Rom.8.17. GOD said His Son (Himself in His Son form) can only be a perfected Saviour of others by being the perfect suffererWow! And that was Gods way. Read again in Heb.2.10. And so your mental sufferings are really love, you being conditioned to help so many others and thus save them as you are in the process of being saved yourself. Paul in Heb, said Labour to enter into that rest! Again read it in Heb.4.11, and that labouring means, not hard outer work, but persisting in believing. See how that verse ended!
So, love, all your labours are reactions of your own precious but often interfering human mind how you think or feel this or that. And YOU are dead and Christ is your life. Again read Col.3.3.4. so keep saying and BEING what you ARE in Christ and He in you. The more you fling your arms around and shout for knowing, the slower it will be in coming, because your f linging is blocking the knowing. BE STILL AND KNOW that I am God. So back you come to ACCEPTING (your mind storms), but then believing (what HE says to you in His word), and praising (by word if not yet in feeling).
Now love; send me your next epistle according to my loved Joan! Ill await it!