Moments With Meryl
by Meryl Langley

Of late I’ve been realizing how shame-based I am. I feel ashamed of my background, my financial situation, my education. I think it’s the education one that’s been causing me the most problems. Well, I’ve been glad to be aware of the fact that I was shame-based, because that then gave me a platform to faith. What I’ve been saying over the last three or four weeks is, "Well, I feel shame-based, but I know that Christ is not shame-based," and therefore I made my faith statement that neither am I.

Now the feelings of shame-based have persisted, but I’ve continued to make these faith statements. And last week-end, when one of the women said that she was jealous of my clarity, she said "Look at this. I’m a trained psychologist, and with all my education, you know, I’m jealous of this that Meryl has." Well, can you just imagine how I felt? It was as if God had spoken to me direct and said, "There you are.

You’ve made your faith statements and now you can see which is more important–to have your eyes and your ears open to God’s truth or to be rich in education. Somewhere in the New Testament Jesus said to the disciples, "Blessed are your ears, for they hear, and your eyes, for they see." And that was how it felt to me. I have received the reward of faith, and I tell you, I was blessed.