Dear Mary Jane,
I loved hearing your news, and had a real picture of the movers trotting back and forth across the street to move you. I’m sure you’re glad you’re settled in. Your budget does sound tight, but God does promise to meet our needs, and, as you say, you haven’t been disappointed yet.
Something I’ve been thinking about a lot lately and on which I’ve gotten tremendous help from Norman’s books and is the weird statement from God "Before you ask, I will answer." I guess the question would be, why are there problems and where’s God with the answer? He says the problem is there to simply point our faith eyes to the solution already there in the spirit (real) dimension.
God also means us to have our initial negative reactions–fear, anger, jealousy, boredom, whatever. That reaction gets us involved because we are touched somewhere where it hurts; there-fore, we are either pressed into God by faith, or we keep on complaining and the reaction turns into a belief, which is sin, because then I don’t just feel something, I am something. I have certainly done more than my share of complaining: life shouldn’t be this way; I got a raw deal; if only X happened, I would be OK; nobody under-stands how hard it is, etc. I’m really beginning to see the value of recognizing how Satan has programmed me, be honest with myself, and then realize that this is God’s clue to see the perfect solution already waiting in the wings. Perhaps the solution is the truth about myself, or "seeing" with the eyes of faith that my need in a particular situation is the receptacle of the supply (to quote Norman) and believe that everything that is happening in the visible world is part of the process to bring the fact from the fourth dimension into manifestation. It can feel kind of nuts, living with feet on the ground yet faith in the invisible. But, it has been a lifesaver for me. Just passing it along in case it applies.
Let’s keep in touch,
CONTINUING GOD’S WAY
Thank you for your card. The reason God didn’t want you to get my note too quickly was you wrote "The more you walk in the truth of who you are, the more fixed your believing is." That was exactly what I needed to read when I opened your card.
I have been having a bit of a hard time. I was fine until the Tuesday after the conference. When I woke up that morning I felt terrible. Depressed, really down on the floor. I found the child had returned. The child and the woman have been locked in battle. You all were right. I have to keep on asking myself if I am a child or woman. Sometimes the woman has won, but then the child sneaks back.
I have been and still get terrible negative feelings; they gather in my stomach and paralyze me mentally. So I have been a bit up and down. I had a good pray this morning and I feel a bit more mature and stable. Sorry about the moaning, but it helps to write it down.
I am really glad I went to the conference. It was a bit painful, but God has shown me some truths. I must continue along the way He has shown me.
Thank you so much for your letter; I am encouraged to hear that you are doing better. I think you’ll find that life is a series of feeling OK and then not feeling OK; it’s like the tide which comes and goes. Feelings come, and they go, it’s a natural part of our humanity and does not alter the spirit truth that we are joined to Christ and that it is He who lives through us. He is not affected by feelings and will live regardless of them. All we have to do is believe it.
I understand what you are saying about the child and the woman battling; it does feel like that. I too have experienced a similar battle and I decided that once it was Christ who was living my life, and in me He is an adult, then that is how He will live through me. So, while it often felt like the old me (Satan/ Christina–the child) was living, it really was the new me (Christ/Christina–the adult) living. Again, no matter how much it felt like the child, my job was and is to still believe it is the adult (Christ) living. If I believe I am the old child, then Satan will trick me and live that out through my members to try to prove to me that the lie of old self is true. I must continue on believing that the old me is dead and the new me is Christ, lives no matter what, and He does. Satan only really wants to keep control of you and if you believe the old lies about yourself then he will manage to do that for a time until your eyes are opened once again to the truth that Christ lives in you, as you, and you are in fact free.
I’m so pleased you are glad you came to the conference. It was a delight to hear and see the change in you as the time went on and you are right, you must continue along the way God has shown you. To not do so would not be obeying God and would not be being true to yourself, Christ/ Pam.
Much love to you, keep it up,
I need to let you know that The Intercessor means so much to me. This and the books I have of Norman’s and others. Yes I Am holds my sanity. This truth is certainly not known in the circles I travel in, which are mostly Christian.
In my church I am seeing some movement of the Spirit, but it’s slow. And I feel my time is short. But nevertheless I stand in this truth, feeling like an odd one at times. They understand there’s something different but I’m sure some think I’m just strange. But we know this truth has to be a revelation. So we move in love.
God bless you for being there. I appreciate it very much.
In His love,
Carmelite Connelly Greensboro, NC
BATTLES OF FAITH
Hothorpe Hall in Leicestershire, England is set among delightful little villages with their sleepy church spires and old farm buildings. The Hall itself is a large nineteenth century Manor House with twelve acres of gardens and woodlands surrounded by fields and peaceful countryside as far as the eye can see.
This beautiful scene was the setting of the British spring conference which I attended with my family. It contrasted vividly with the ‘explosions’ and variable turmoil that had been going on in my mind for some time.
When I spoke out to accept this Truth in a quiet, private moment in front of Fowler Cooper and Gene Fitzpatrick in Sollecito’s Restaurant, Boone, North Carolina last summer, little did I know what was awaiting me. Sanda foresaw that I would be `hit’ and Satan would do his worst as he would attempt to pull me off from it. This has come true with a vengeance!
I seem to have taken hits all over the place, even where, for years, my life seemed peaceful, settled and controlled, such as at school where I have taught foreign languages for over twenty years.
By now so many battles have taken place that, on one level, I feel like the Queen of England when Windsor Castle was badly damaged by fire–the `Annul Horribilis’ as she expressed it–that horrible year. I say `on one level’ because, with a little help from my (Zerubbabel) friends, I have been brought to see what has been going on in my life. The hand of the real culprit can be seen behind it all. I have been hit, I have been pulled off–more than once–but I intend to come through it all a stronger Christian, whole and lacking nothing, well able to detect and deal with Satan’s deceits and lies.
All the best,
More Articles from The Intercessor, Vol 11 No 4
- The Deep Things of God
- Editor’s Note
- Moments with Meryl
- A Strange Army!
- Irish Summer Conference
- The Letter to the Romans
- Isaiah 45:20-25
- Men’s Conference
- Excerpt from The Intercession of Rees Howells
- A Look at a Book
- It’s a Wonderful Thing…
- Questions & Answers
- Marching On
- Hopekinsville Fellowship
- God’s Promises
- To Think About
- The Mailbox
- New Light on the Twelve Steps
- No Excuses for Failure
- Tape Talk
- Words to Live By