Death Working in Me

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The death to the nature of self-loving love (Satan) was then evidenced in me by a simple test—the kind of test by which the Spirit confirms His
new-birth love in all of us. I had my first close relationship with a girl. But when I told her of my new experience of a living Christ, she did not want that kind of religion. The Spirit sharply made it plain to me that I could not
have “two masters in my heart.”

It took a severe battle and three weeks’ struggle to settle that issue, for we are meant to be fighters! But the supremely important point is that
when I made the choice, after a word with my wise mother, the self-for self-desire to keep the girl for my pleasure was totally eclipsed and replaced by that new self-for-others love in my heart.

That simple costly “obedience of faith” cleared the way for the overwhelming love of Jesus, replacing that former self-interested love. The girl went out, and Jesus took her place. That first “death working in me” sparked into immediate being His life in my body.

Immediately I joined my World War I regiment in training for the trenches in France. But now a compulsive zeal was set on fire in me to share the secret of eternal life with my fellow soldiers, soon to face death. That zeal still has its total possession of me.

This was the first intercession in action, also shared in your own terms by many of you readers. The principle of death working in me on the self-interested level, and thus life for others by a costly withering method, came into unrecognized operation.