From God Unlimited
by Norman Grubb

What will make meaningful to me these tremendous truths of Christ living His life in me, and I united to Him in place of the old union? The answer, of course, is faith. But that doesn’t seem to act. I do believe, and yet it seems to make little difference. Well there is still no other answer. But it is possible that you are not really believing in God’s impossible word. You think you are, but you are really believing in what you think about that word. I told you that it costs everything to believe. "Let us labor therefore…lest any man fall after the same example of unbelief." Faith crosses an unbridgeable gulf into the invisible, unknowable, impossible. It crosses just by believing it has crossed, because He says so, and He is the bridge. To everything on the human side of the gulf it looks as unbridgeable as ever, and that there is no other side! If therefore, without realizing it, you are basing your faith on a single personal reaction to your faith, then you are still on the human side of the gulf. You are really believing in yourself, not in Him who takes you to the Other Side.

-From God Unlimited