When I Am Weak…
We must first learn and accept with praise as the adventure of adversity, the reality of life’s pressures and our constant negative human reactions to them. By this means only, first finding how earthen our vessels are, shall we then by stages be ever quicker, as Jesus so wonderfully was, in knowing how to replace our negative with His positive. That way we become at home in the eternal fact that His strength can only be made perfect in our weakness; and find Paul’s secret that “when I am weak, then am I strong.”
This is of vast importance because we so mistakenly have got used to thinking that we are wrong when we have these negative reactions. No, they must be.
So we shall always start by feeling human hurts, fears, dislikes, unwillingness, coldness, powerlessness, lusts, angers, jealousies, and all the list of them. Start, we say, because the start of such reactions is not sin. A human must be human, and Jesus himself had to feel temptation to be tempted in all points. Sin is not in the start, but in the continuance. Negative reactions are not sin. They are the negative stirrings which are the jumping off point for faith. Sins are when, instead of taking those jumps of faith, we continue in the reaction. ‘When lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin.’ When we ‘marry’ the self-reaction, accept and continue in it, then the child is sin. We have already quoted how Paul went as far as to ‘take pleasure’ in those experiences which hurt us humans: what he named as feeling his weakness, being hurt or insulted by others, having personal needs, being persecuted, having insoluble problems: ‘for,’ he said, ‘when I am weak, then am I strong.’ Note, not ‘then I shall be made strong or become strong or seek for strength.’ No, ‘then am I strong,’ because all he had to do was to recognize who he really was, Christ in him.
Taken from: Who Am I?, By Norman Grubb
