The Mind
by Barbara Rogerson

I’m lonely and different
Abused and ashamed
And no one hears my cry
Or so it seems
Except the demons within
And so begins the masquerade.

I take the center stage
And dance in my own light
I become a god unto myself
I become the center of the universe
I trample on the beauty around me
In desperation, until

The stage becomes my prison
I am trapped, there is no way out
The frantic pace closes in on me
The nights are so long, the pain is deep
And so I pray:

O my God, why, do you leave me in despair and desolation
When all around is seemingly glory and triumph
The very essence of life appear and disappear
As though they were just puppets, on a string
You mock me, You tantalize me, You hide your face.
Is that the game you are playing?

Child, you have forgotten your prayers of yesteryear
What, you give up the things I hold so dear?
Lord, You know what I want to change
But, how can You and I achieve the impossible?
It only seemed impossible to you
Because you did not have my infinite mind.

Remember the prayers that went unanswered at the time
The prayers you prayed that were impossible for me
For had I answered in the way that you wished
Those other prayers of yours, the most important ones
Would have vanished like a vapor in the sea
And never would have brought you the life you long to see.

My love for you is more than just a fleeting feeling
To lose you would have been too great a price to pay
Your suffering has been your greatest treasure
To keep you close to me so come what may
The mind of God instilled within you
So that you can live the life for which you pray.

The answer came
His name is Jesus
The Creator of the Universe Manifested in me, through me
Spirit joined to spirit
Hallelujah! I am part of the Whole.
Everlasting, Eternal, and Complete.